Miracle of Sanity
by Rev. Sandi
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would like share with you the ‘miracle of sanity.' I believe
that we all go through some sort of life experiences that helps
account for us acting in insane ways from time to time. In other
words, at certain times in our lives it would be natural and perfectly
understandable to react to insane circumstances with imprudent
behaviours. The exception would be reacting sanely to these insane
me give you a personal example. Without going into great detail,
I will share with you that my childhood was challenging. My mother
is an alcoholic who was herself raised by a violent alcoholic.
It is easy to understand why she did the things she did. She simply
did what she was taught, and having never felt a deep unrestricted
love, she was never modeled how to love in a sane, unconditional
way. She therefore repeated the cycle that she was raised in.
there is an interesting experience that she had that I also will
share with you. At around age six, she saw a vision of Jesus Christ
at the foot of her bed. From what I understand, she was given
some negative feed back about that experience and proceeded to
live in fear of the phenomenon. I wonder what would have happened
had someone validated for her that she was indeed protected by
guardian angels and indeed Jesus Christ himself? Did this leave
the door open for her to be possessed by a lower level spirit
needing alcohol? Did it simply undermine her faith in a heaven
world or the Divine? I don't know but I feel that it was a critical
time for her soul. I also feel that her soul was significantly
suppressed during the time I was growing up with her.
periodic and brief moments, I had glimpses of my mother's true
soul or Self, and she had a beautiful spirit. She is a wonderfully
creative and intelligent soul, when she is present. Unfortunately
those moments were few and far between for me as a child.
to share with you a scene from my child hood. When I was about
four years old, I had a visitation from an angel. I was at my
father's parents house, which is were I spent my summers. I don't
remember a whole lot about the angel other than that it was there.
I mentioned it to my Grand mother. I don't really remember her
reaction to the angel specifically but I do remember her taking
me on her knee and telling me that she knew I had the wisdom to
handle my mother.
this was a very powerful experience on many fronts. First she
validated that I had a challenge in dealing with my mother. Everyone
else was afraid of her and just went along with her to keep the
peace. And here was someone who admitted to me, a four year old,
that my mother was disturbed. She didn't label her. She didn't
judge her. She didn't say things to turn me against her. She simply
stated that my challenge in life was dealing with my mother and
secondly, she validated that I had the wisdom to do so.
care where this wisdom came from. I had it. My grandmother said
so. She gave me faith to draw on my own resources to deal with
her. In doing this she also gave me hope. She said I know you
can deal with her. You will be alright. She also let me know that
she loved me and trusted me. This was a big secret to let out
of the family closet, even if to just speak to family about it.
perceptions of my world were validated in that instant. I had
my faith in an afterlife or heavenly world affirmed. My faith
in myself was validated. And I was given hope through the love
of my grandmother. The three most precious gifts - faith, hope
and charity. I believe that it is these three gifts that help
to break the cycle of family violence or dysfunction. I was blessed
by the grace of God in that moment. This blessing was reinforced
every summer by my father's sister, my Aunt. I spent a good deal
of time in the summer at her place, which was close to my Grand
parents place. At the end of every summer, she would give me her
phone number on a small scrap piece of paper and tell me that
if I ever wanted to leave, to just call collect and she would
take care or it. WOW! Empowerment too. If I wanted to leave, I
had family to go to. That's all she said. A simple phone number
on a scrap piece of paper validated my world that something was
wrong, without laying blame, placing judgements, or turning a
child against their mother. She respected my spiritual journey
here on earth while offering me security.
hope and charity - the three gifts that empower one to react sanely
to an insane world. The requirements for the Miracle of Sanity.
What I'm going to talk about is how these gifts were manifested
in my life to create a calm amidst the storm, that have allowed
me to be the eye of the storm.
and foremost, everything is in the way we see it. Optics, both
internally and externally tint the world that we live in with
our own individual colour. You see someone untrustworthy, I see
them trustworthy. You see charming, I see love. You see imagination,
I see spirit. It's all in how we see the world. Our perceptions,
color our reactions to them.
I had as a child, was an "Aha" experience. My base perceptions
fell into place and created my reaction to my childhood and teen
years. I simply believed in a Higher Power. I believed in my ability
to cope with whatever that Higher Power brought my way. I believed
in my mother's inherent goodness. I believed I did not create
her dysfunction and I believed that I was protected by Spirit.
These belief empowered me to grow despite stifling conditions.
My sense of power came from my internal beliefs, not my social
position. I didn't have to borrow strength from my position, because
the position of a child is one of no power. Therefore, I was empowered
at a very early age to develop inner power and strength. This
is the gift that my mother gave to me. She paid dearly for that
gift but what a wonderful gift for a mother to be able to give
as perception tints our world, the way in which we perceive also
tints our world. If you see things from the inside out, then that
can be limiting how you perceive the world. Seeing the world from
the outside in, means that, for example, if you feel you might
be ostracized for joining a particular group that you enjoy, then
you limit what you tell friends and family about it. It also means
that you are not free to experience that group fully and to see
it for it's full benefit to you. Your perception is tainted by
fear of social rejection.
things inside-out is a process. The internal constantly changes,
and so therefore does your external perceptions. What you were
afraid of yesterday, holds no fear today. And what you are afraid
of today will have no hold on you tomorrow.
we are afraid of things, this develops an unhealthy dependence
on our perceptions. As we reduce and eliminate fear from our life,
we heal our inner spirit and develop our evolving perceptions
that foster a healthy interdependence with others. We can choose
to see the good in each person that comes our way and take that
seed of goodness and strength. As we nurture it with love, honesty
and care, we empower that person to be blessed, just as my grandmother
and aunt did for me, with the divine grace of faith, hope, and
message to you today is to trust your inner judgements, don't
let them be tinted by social pressures or perceptions, offer you
love to everyone who crosses your path and to be aware that whenever
you have the opportunity to be honest and caring, you may actually
be blessing someone with the opportunity for the miracle of sanity
in an insane world.
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